What Are Your Options in Love???

Our options in love seem to be complicated, but if we look a bit further, they are not...

I guess in my case I am just scared.
Again!
Even if I know that being scared is beautiful, it is not easy to deal with...

I thought it is going to be hard to meet people.
Cool people.

But it was not true. I have been meeting awesome dudes.
They are all over the place!

Professionals, or artists, or students...
Hard workers.
Thinkers.
Awesome partners for chats (for the moment online)

But getting to give the next step is getting so hard for me.
I keep on avoiding the date.
And I haven't figured out why...

In the meanwhile I receive this video from Tose that made me think about the possibility of being scared not of how hard is to get to know a cool person, but how hard is to love, once we are in love...

I guess love is more than a natural thingy...
Love needs to be taken care of.

I do want to take care of the love I will feel, not just of the person I will love.
I want to miss that person one second after I have left for job...
Miss that person during the coffee with my co-workers...
Miss that person so much that it hurts.

Maybe I am making love painful when it does not need to be, but you know what, I don't care, I really don't care. I want to give myself as a present, and if I will get broken to pieces again, you all already know what happens with my heart when it gets broken...

I am looking forward to it.
I have been getting better physically (exercise hard everyday, personal trainer starting next week and proteins and diet!)...
I have been getting better in managing my time to have space for a relationship (working normal and real working hours!)
I have been getting better emotionally (closing old and new wounds!)

Next week I will also have my first two dates.
I will be ready.

I AM READY!
I want to leave one of my dates feeling like Tose's song...
Like leaving the person after the date will be the hardest thing to do!
I want to fall in love like a spark!
I want to meet my own expectations.
I want a magic night!
I do not want to wait more.
I do not want to waste time.

I want to love
and be loved back!



This is the new video of late Macedonian and Balkan pop icon Tose Proeski that aired for the first time on June 1 on MTV Adria.

The spot for "The Hardest Thing" was created by three Slovenians - Jani Cherne, Matej Kavcnik and Igor Nardin - who made the selection out of seven-hour recorded material.

The song is part of Tose's English-language album, which was to launch Tose's international career.

The material for the CD shot in Jamaica, Sweden and London, will be released in autumn 2008, cannot wait!!!...

The Hardest Thing

I sleep all night
Right by your side
I love to hear your breathin'
breathin'

The morning light
Opens my eyes
It’s nearly time
For leavin'
leavin'

I know that is seems like it's easy for me
All I wish you could feel what's goin' on inside

It's the hardest thing that I ever have to do
To walk away from you
when I wanna hold you

It's the hardest thing in every single day
To have to turn away
I want you to know that

This is the hardest thing

Another day
is years away
I close my eyes
to see your ways

The more I wait
the longer it takes
It fells like time
is standing still

Wherever you go
whatever you do
I want you to know that you're on my mind

It's the hardest thing that I ever have to do
To walk away from you
when I wanna hold you

It's the hardest thing in every single day
To have to turn away
I want you to know that

This is the hardest thing

Just let go of your hand
it's the hardest thing

To make you understand
that to love you fell you
Till the time I see you again
It's the hardest thing

Oooooouuuuuuuuu

It's the hardest thing that I ever have to do
To walk away from you when I wanna hold you
It's the hardest thing in every single day
To have to turn away I want you to know that
This is the hardest thing

I sleep all night
Right by your side
I love to hear your breathin’
breathin’

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